I am generally comfortable in who I am. I have come to realise that it is me or it’s me. I’m stuck with me for the rest of my life. The sooner I stop battling with myself the better.
I have weaknesses and I have strengths. I have life lessons and I have regrets. I have ambitions and I have achievements. I can change what I do, I can change what I look like, I can change my surroundings but ultimately I will always be me.
I’m happy with that.
Of course there are things I would like to change if I could… but fact of the matter is I can’t.
I can’t change the past, I can’t change what has happened but I can live here and now and I can plan for the future.
One thing that is out of my own or anyone else’s control, are my feelings.
For a long time, I was beating myself up because I couldn’t feel happy. I can’t make myself feel a certain way. Feelings and emotions are triggered by thoughts, surroundings and circumstance. I will never be in FULL control of any of these, so why am I giving myself such a hard time?
It has taken me a long time to realise this; it’s a mindset I never thought I would be in, but here I am.
I can do certain things that will make me feel better… I can do things that will make me feel worse. Being aware of these triggers is really important.
There are some days where nothing and no one will make me feel better, but we all have those days, right? Even the worst days only have 24 hours.
We feel what we feel for a reason. We are who we are for a reason. We do what we do for a reason.
The best thing we can do is build on our weaknesses and play on our strengths.
You can’t expect yourself to feel happy all of the time, it just isn’t realistic.
Being content in who you are and what you have will be much more sustainable than being happy all of the time.
You can’t guarantee that the things that make you happy will always be there.
Being content in yourself, however, you can always guarantee you will be there.
Recognise your strengths, use them. Be proud of who you are and what you have achieved. There is still so much you can and will do.
Get out there and show them what you’re made of.
Mental illness is not for the weak.
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