mental health

Dear Depression

Dear Depression,

We have known each other for some time now.

I’m not going to say how nice it has been knowing you, because it has not been at all. In fact, I despise you.

I know this is no surprise to you, after all, I tell you often enough.

You’ve made the hard times harder and prolonged my pain. You take hold of every part of me and you shred it. Who do you think you are?

It breaks my heart to see how you swallow people whole and pick apart every part of them. How do you do that? How can you be that dark? It’s only ever been you who has convinced me that I couldn’t carry on and you had me pinned. Well I’ve showed you, huh?

You make me look a fool. I can’t explain why I don’t sleep, why I can’t face the world or why I am so withdrawn… but you leave me there with no words and you watch me fall.

You arrive uninvited and stay for as long as is convenient for you, despite how much you’re ruining my life and my plans. There is no warning, no time to prepare, you’re just there. You need to appreciate that I need my space. I can’t cope when you’re here, it is like I’m piggy backing you around with me, and you’re so heavy. There is no escaping you and every way I turn, you’re there.

There is not enough room in me for the both of us. You need to leave.

You’ve made me cry. You’ve made me bleed. You’ve made me want to die. There is a little part of me, deep down, which will always fight back. I will never give in to you.

I can see you picking on others too. I see you sucking the life out of my family, my friends. These people don’t deserve to be treated the way you treat them.

I’ll let you in on a secret… we will win.

We are standing together and we are fighting. I might struggle on my own, but I have an army behind me and you are going down.

I hope you’re ready for us.

Your empowered victim,

Alice

 

Stay with me here.

 

 

 

 

 

2 comments

  1. Hey Alice,
    This is a positive blog because of how you finish the blog.
    There is an army behind you and pls allow me to be part of your army!
    You are going to win the battle and I don’t want to focus on the Depression before your positive conquering end to your blog, but everything you write resonates and is deeply accurate.
    Well done Alice.

    Let’s start the fight for real.
    You’re coming out of that rabbit hole if even if I have to pull you out (gently) by the ears ✔️✔️

    Aidan.

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