Author Archives: Alice Down the Rabbit Hole

Please don’t take it personally when sometimes I don’t want to talk. Please don’t think it is anything you’ve said or anything you’ve done that has left me not wanting to go out. Please don’t be upset or angry when I cancel our plans. It is hard for me, too. When I am a better versionContinue reading “Don’t Take It Personally”

This is exactly how I’m feeling right now. I’m so lucky to be surrounded by friends, family and strangers who genuinely care… Yet all I want is to be by myself. I don’t want anyone to tell me that ‘it’s going to be okay’. I don’t see how it can be. “You’re strong. You canContinue reading “On My Own”

This is a post I have wanted to write for a while. It has taken me a while to be able to write about my experience with self-harm. Firstly, what is self-harm? “Self-harm is when somebody intentionally damages or injures their body. It’s usually a way of coping with or expressing overwhelming emotional distress.” –Continue reading “My story isn’t over;”

Dear Depression, We have known each other for some time now. I’m not going to say how nice it has been knowing you, because it has not been at all. In fact, I despise you. I know this is no surprise to you, after all, I tell you often enough. You’ve made the hard timesContinue reading “Dear Depression”

Well, I suppose, logically, you’re kind of right. It is after all my brain that causes these thoughts and feelings, which is located in my head. I should be able to control that, right? Wrong. Mental health symptoms are not just in my head. Depression and anxiety have caused me lots of other physical healthContinue reading “It’s all in my head”

I am generally comfortable in who I am. I have come to realise that it is me or it’s me. I’m stuck with me for the rest of my life. The sooner I stop battling with myself the better. I have weaknesses and I have strengths. I have life lessons and I have regrets. IContinue reading “What I’m Made Of”

I’ll never understand how I can be surrounded by people, yet still feel so alone. I’ll never understand how one part of my ‘inside voice’ will be telling me I can do this and that it will be okay… yet another part will be telling me that I can’t do this and bad things willContinue reading “I’ll never understand”

It started in a meeting at work a few weeks ago… ‘How can we raise money for West Kent Mind?’ *LIGHTBULB* Penny for your thoughts was born! I plucked up the courage to share this little brainwave with the room (a massive thing for me to do #littlevictories). The idea was for  a bucket toContinue reading “Penny for Your Thoughts”

Keeping active is not always easy or possible when you aren’t well. If it will make you feel even a smidgen better, it has to be worth a go, right? I would not consider myself to be a sporty person AT ALL. I’m all for long weekends wrapped in duvets with funky socks on. ThisContinue reading “Mental health on the move”

This is an opportune moment to write a blog post, I just had a panic attack. Why? I wish I knew. I think sometimes it’s worse when I don’t know why I’ve panicked. If I knew what had caused it, then I could have removed myself from that situation and be able to now reflectContinue reading “In this moment”